It’s a chilled Sunday morning. Me and my lover have just had breakfast and lied in bed cuddling, feeling into each other’s breath and existence. “It feels like time doesn’t exist” I say. “I wish we could freeze time” he says. Moments earlier I had a shower listening to music. I put a music album…Read More I wish we could freeze time
It’s funny how right when I was feeling self-confident, full of energy, motivation and self-determination, life turned things around. I’ve been on a low lately, feeling pretty much depressed and not very up for doing everyday activities. My low self-esteem happened gradually and on three levels: physical, relational and sexual. Looking back at the period…Read More Low self-esteem: is it me, is it luck or is it just the winter?
Content warning: use of psychedelics. I have this friend that I met a while ago, who I’ve been seeing for coffees and catch-ups from time to time. Our friendship evolved in a natural, relaxed way. Being away regularly helped with that. Even if we have different backgrounds, we seem to have faced quite a lot…Read More Neither a friend nor a lover: the uncertainty of a platonic relationship
It’s Sunday. I fill my room with plants, light a candle, put some atmospheric lighting on. There’s water by the side, a taperware with fruit in case I’m hungry, my computer, headphones and eyeshades. I’m ready. I’ve been considering this for a couple months and planning it the last couple of weeks. I faced some…Read More A trip on magic mushrooms: exploring perfectionism
I’m at a festival and the place is full of topless men. I enjoy the music a lot and I’m trying to let go and have fun with it. I keep getting distracted by these beautiful bodies. I see all these men around me savouring the attention, it feels as if they put all this…Read More Why I started working out more often (and what I learned in the process)
A warning about the content of this article: even if I don’t describe any events of sexual abuse, I talk about the discussions that took place when the Leaving Neverland Michael Jackson documentary was out. If you think you might find the content triggering, it’s totally okay to come back to it when you are…Read More Leaving neverland: on questioning sexual trauma survivor experiences
There’s some sort of story about me that seems to be manifesting pretty creatively in different contexts and quite often. There’s a lot I don’t know about it. For now the only thing that’s sure is that it keeps happening. It’s as if there’s a message I need to get which I don’t seem to…Read More A pattern of comparison and rejection: why do they always choose him over me?
A warning about the content of this post: even if I don’t describe any events in detail, in this piece I mention thoughts around suicide that some people might find triggering. I’m not a morning person. I’ve never really been one. I can’t remember many times that I woke up in the morning and felt…Read More I’m not a morning person
The writing of this post is intentional. At least it’s more intentional than others. I’m facing a writer’s block so I’m writing this in order to see what’s going on and get unstuck. Now that the first steps of writing for an audience are done (writing and sending drafts to friends, getting feedback, setting up…Read More Writer’s block
I don’t know how many times I’ve heard friends, relatives and acquaintances say that they think people overdo it with this whole consent thing – but they’re a lot. Every time I hear it part of my heart breaks. That’s partly because I have to explain again and again why I think this view is…Read More Consent: my thoughts on why we don’t want to do it, what it looks like and why it matters